Something Simple

Something as simple as a smile; something as simple as a thought... I'm simply happy with our ideas... with us..

It has been bought to my attention that I have not blogged in a while; he keeps me on my toes... and its as simple as that... this is for you and I have realized that this blog has been a dedication to this feeling that I have been suffering so painfully happy like because its just that simple. You mean more to me than even I know and when i say I am miserable I am.. But to be miserable with you is better than to be miserable without you and normally I would have counted the days its going to take for us to let go but I'm just going with it but never losing sight of the fact that eventually this will end but just enjoying the smiles, the laughter, the thought that a feeling such as this could be true but obviously not in its truest form.. that's why I guess we believe love is for suckers and the shit really doesn't exist. Not saying I am in Love although I have used this word loosely in the past week or so.. I guess I just care that much and if only I can see these thoughts manifest in his mind without him saying a word I would be more secure.. but maybe I wont; truth be told this is a fallacy in my reality that keeps me smiling, heart still pumping and taking everyday with this sour ass grain of salt... Complicated maybe but its really as simple as this... its as simple as us..

Just because it is Thursday!

I talk so much …. But guess what? I don’t really care … so there! Its 4:10p & who knows what I am thinking. My mind is all over the place as usual, filled with daydreams of him, thoughts of the universe and random foolery in between. I think I love the position I am in… I’m working towards me and when I finally accomplish my goals I know love will follow; I will meet my equal again. Back to, I talk too much…. I believe the person I am meant to be with is the one person who can have no clue about what I’m talking about but listen to my nonsense and ramble of the things that I am most interested in just because they think it’s cute that I’m so excited about everything. I believe love is for suckers and sometimes I don’t mind being a sucker but most times I’m good on that… love exist but a lasting love; yea right! I want it though. I will always say this, life is funny; cracks jokes all damn day but I’m grateful to have a good laugh everyday; You Only Live Once right?? Today is an ok day…lol