I wish I was more like you

Dear feelings,
I wish I could be more like you. Without doubt and sure that you belong where you have been placed. Without fear and just guided by the truth you embody. Feelings, I wish I could have the courage as you do.. To not think and just be because in the end a feeling can only be manifest in itself and never controlled.. Feelings, I adore you but envy you all at the same time because im sure that if I could grasp your concept I wouldn't feel like this :/... Or like this :( or do this :'( more than I do that :-D.... However, feeling I enjoy you either way... I wish I could be more like you though. I guess then I would have the courage to say I want to be selfishly involved and hopelessly in love.. I want to say fck what you think and have what you really want.. Come for who you really want and fck time.. There is no such thing as bad timing because time exist and it is in it rightful place at all times.. I could leave you feeling but I will only be running away something that will always be there.. I wish I was more like you.. Courages enough to demand that this feeling can be manifasted only if you let it but since you cant but really you won't.. I'll wait because like the feeling im not going anywhere; I cant...