I met my equal once...

Life is funny.... and when it cracks jokes, I guess I have no choice but to laugh. Not a simple haha laugh but a healthy laugh... Laugh so hard your chest hurts but in my particular case my heart hurts. I know I said I was ready to feel like this...you know the fuck it because I can feel you feeling... or that so what if everyone knows... how in like I am, you know the unwillingly willingness to submit and commit for no damn reason. I mean of course in my case there is plenty reason; I met my equal once. The other half of my dollar & glow to my light. I used to be really innocent when I was younger.. a yes girl, let people that I thought cared about me run over me...I loved hard.. In love with the idea of being in love but over the years I have become a loner but very loyal to my friends. I used to care what people thought of me but I am my own person now and no one's opinion matters... I beat myself up for not being as successful as I could be and working hard but not hard enough... I keep a lot of my feelings inside and deal with everyone else's... I feel like I can handle my own shit and if you can give me yours so you don't have to carry it I will take that too. I'm like that with people I love. You know when it all comes down to it Love is like Math: it surrounds you at all times, its everywhere and in ever thing. Love is life. So I talk about it a lot because it pertains to all that I do.You are included in that; its terrifying... I met my equal once...