Added Perks

Happy is a feeling or showing pleasure or contentment. Having a sense of confidence in or satisfaction with a person, arrangement or situation.That is a defined definition of happy right?

But happiness is merely what you make of it, don't you think??  Its like in school, when you start a class everyone starts with an A and throughout the semester, your grade can change based on what effort you have put forth in school. We are not perfect at all, so we wont always get an A right, luckily there are different classes and every time you start out with an A. Like a do over or fresh start. And in life we are constantly finding ways to be better or not! However, just like classes there are new days and for everything you didn't do yesterday, you can start fresh on today. Although people may not think that way, I think it is true. In anything there is work but once you have gotten there you just have to make sure you can stay there.

So lets talk about Happy. In order to reach that goal you must be happy with yourself; that's it. Simple right? Not really, emotions are hard on people, people are hard on people, situations are hard on people. My man makes me happy, when he makes me laugh, when we talk, when he kisses my forehead; when he tells me I am beautiful and especially when I hear him say he loves me but he has to say it all weird because its weird to him. Then again, we have a pretty awesome relationship. we communicate well, we are friends, partners, lovers; we just work well together. We have never really had a real argument. well at least not one that has made me react or not even make me want to look at him. He has never really hurt me to the point where I wanted to leave and had no thought behind it until recently. He said to me the other day 'I hope that you can be happy again and my response was I just hope that you could be Happy."  Lets not forget that the goal first is, self. Thing is I am happy period and he is my perk, my greatest perk and although I was hurt, I was not unhappy; I am not unhappy. All I could think of was the way he makes me feel and that we are all human and that I wish he was Happy; I wish he knew what my heart feels like and how much more of a good emotion is in it because of him, but again he is my perk. I remember once, he said I am happy and I could feel his smile through the phone, he said it without a thought; it was beautiful, my entire heart lit up. I love that man so. In the beginning of this I said,  "In anything you strive to reach there is work but once you have gotten there you just have to make sure you can stay there." It seems and I have learned, that we allow people, situations, emotions and money dictate our happy. How we feel about our self because lets face it,  happy is all about self love. If you are always smiling with yourself then nothing else can really come through and break that; no matter how good or bad. So what do we do?? Who ever really knows and I truly don't have an answer for that other than to search for your happy. How you do it? I have no idea but if we all would make ourselves priority first then you can add people, situations or whatever into the equation. We have to always know that we are the prize and everything else is a perk. I can say I have lost myself, my happy in people plenty of times and I almost lost myself in the man.  I didn't want to lose sight of me, I just wanted to have sight of us. A relationship is the easiest was anyone can lose any and everything, I became selfless at one point and in turn it allowed him to be selfish, that is when I realized I almost lost my happy. We have to realize that relationships are about two people everything matters on both ends. Easier said than done but teams of two work well with both teammates work together and work with one another, not one or the other. Happy is love; love yourself and then you can learn to love someone else... everything else is the added perk.; Don't need it, want it. Never forget yourself and just be happy.