I was in love once and now…..

I want love without the love but I know that truly doesn't exist. I want the heart without the heartache but that is love without love and that truly doesn't exist. i am stagnant in the idea but what's the truth in it all. I would be the one who hurts me. I would only allow you to borrow me in fear that you might just keep me. Then what? Then you would be love in my love that I wouldn't allow to exist.